Elfonson just me

Stereotyping

2009-12-04T08:56:00.001-08:00

In the beginning, I was not really giving a high expectation to my new formatted team based on the abilities of my team member. Especially when I saw Jeslin in the list. She gave me an impression that she was more focus in MSN and her entertainment than her school work normally. However I am surprised that she had balances her work and entertainment well enough….As we goes along the lesson, Jeslin participated greatly with her, nevertheless she possesses a type of motivation for me to look upon. When her “gang” left, she stay by to continue and complete her learning.The determination in her eyes shown her willingness to achieve something. I was greatly impressed!

At that moment in time, I felt very guilty for stereotyping her. “I am sorry, Jeslin”.

Maybe sometime when one observe closely, everything might change at that blink of light… Stereotyping can be a form of miscommunication. Yet that miscommunication show a sign of someone’s effort in doing something. Give another round of choice to myself, I chose the right way to walk… However would it be too late for me to? I hope that the next sunrise will show my the light! :)

BABY ELFONSON

2009-09-01T14:51:00.000-07:00

HAPPY LIFE!

BABY ELFONSON!

I am a boy who just want to be happy all the time. I have decided that i will not be sad for anything in life. I will try my best to be a happy boy for the entire 25550 days that i might have or even shorter in life ( roughly estimated around 70 years ). Perhaps not happy meals for everyday but at least a bright beam of sunlight; so warm and heartening.....I will be free from all. In my life, I can just have me to be happy. Of cost, i need people to brighten my life. Back then i hope someone could, or else i would still be happy......Afterall it is everything about me in life. I will do it. I promise to myself that i will do things that i will feel happy in life. Not a day, minute, or second later to delay..it is NOW! 4:16:00am@ 2/9/2009...HAPPY ELFONSON FOREVER!

2009-08-31T11:35:00.000-07:00

Holiday had JUST START for ME...

Looking at my holiday, i am actually reflecting myself to be happy because i would be free from quite a tonne of work load that made me very stress and exhausted this monthe ONLY. I have brainstorm on spending my holiday meaningful to me. I really hope to share things with people around me for this month. Perhaps a few tea-break session might help me a bit. Well also practise my violin and guitar skills and a bit of exercise for myself which i am alway lack off. I Most importantly i think that i should go and play to entertain myself, this would filled my heart with energy again. This is something that i will never get to do for months.

Well, all this is just decision-making of personal. Have you thought of HOW you could change the world? I did. I thought of changing the world by changing myself. I am always very greed and because of this, I could not even make decision between only 2 choices. I think that decision making should be made according to the values that i have view in life. I should define clearly on my values and work towards it.

Work, work and work is not the only solution.

E37Q one moment

2009-08-31T00:09:00.000-07:00

My friends, I will miss YOU.

E37Q is pieces of beautiful mermories that i had in my life. We shared joy together. Although i am somehow concern about my grade and could be very aggressive from time to time, but I am really very gladful to have a wonderful classmate like U. Lets think of some outing that we can do to bring everyone under one roof again! Work for all..Jia U! :)

2009-08-30T05:58:00.000-07:00

Specially for U...

Hope you will like it! :)

It is a day like jigsaw puzzel

2009-08-29T10:12:00.000-07:00

It is a day like jigsaw puzzel...

Today, i am not really happy.....I overslept and never attend my Kayaking training... :( I really hope that i could put in more effort in Kayaking and earn my first star..I can see that the Kayaking group has been disappointed with my participation. I think that I should improve more on my organising skills, make more spaces for Kayaking, MY ONE STAR COURSE!!....I want to earn and join the group for field trip..haiz... I should tell myself to be free on them.....especially tuesday and saturday!!...

I hope to achieve a list of things in this holiday...I tell myself that i will ...Jia U!!I will do it because I know you are there for me.

Anyway, i am feeling to be more relation-orientiated. I realised that even though money and power can be a need in the society but relationship is something that cannot be ignored because it is something that support my spiritual needs and grows together with them...I tried to build up relationship with people like Kai En and braynard ,who i am not familiar with..Felt sad to see Ah Neh going NS, hope that he will remember me and call me out...haha..I also hope to improve relationship between friends who i felt that i can walk with for life. I just wonder if you would open up to me and be my best friend?? A promise that we made.

"Friendship is always a sweet responsibilty, never an opportunity..."

Asystole made my Astuteness?

2009-08-20T10:16:00.000-07:00

After so long way walking on this path in life, I saw the past, present and even forseen future. As I walked a step forward, my heart beat became weaker and weaker. I see myself growing up gradually as time passes, but how did I grow and what will I become eventually?

The past was filled with challenges, restriction and resistances. As I grew with them, I see myself forming a cold heart, as my heartbeat can no longer support it with warm and energy. I am changing to become someone that is no longer care about relationship. I see no passion in life, rather i see my obsessive mind. A mind that filled with benefits, strength and power. I am left to a decision now. Should I do it or change it? It is no longer up to me to choose anymore. I am left with only an empty shell that has no human soul at all. I carry no feeling, love or feeling at all.

In the end, I will be left with no friendship or relationship. I am only going to the path where I can see to be valuable. However is this final destination really valuable or is it just illusion after all? Would it be as empty as the a hollow or it as fruitful as a futile land? As I am writing, I see the vision, but rather, only the mission of my life's perspective should determine, would it be accurate. What do I really desire and need to have in future?

In life, there could be so many question, but to me, they come back to be one again. What do I want? I am not looking at the consequences in this moment in time, I look at myself. Ask my heart again, if it can be regenerating because of hope and light.

I will grow stronger and get ready to answer this question that is so important to me which might affect my life. For now, i will explore like the great adventurer, Marco Polo. Fear made me see and reflect. As i leave up my fingers, i saw another of my footstep in the back of me.

Remember HAPPY=HAPPY......JIA U, everyone for UT3!

Amen! God is smiling at me too! SAY CHEESE!

NEW TALENTS.....

2009-08-02T08:12:00.000-07:00

If you have realised, i placed a new video in my sidebar...
While take your time to watch it! You will discover things that you need!!

Well, i am really excited about learning on how to play a guitar!! I just brought my new guitar with my brothers, Desmond & Yeshen.. Too bad need to get it only by tomorrow..

Guitar lesson start this saturday..Quite near to date...
After the starter lesson, when the holiday start, Desmond will guild me! :)

Today, i was really tired. Woke up at 2pm..I was staring at the brightness first touch my eyesight..Looking at it again
i realised that i need more pill sustain my health..

On the way, i thought i will talk a lot, but i did not...
I always want to bring myself closer to them...but i always fail..lol

When i was looking out for the guitars, i really have no idea what to choose... Ranging for big-small, white-black, high to low pitch..So much..

Thanks to my bros, who helped me with the decision-making...

Oh i also saw a shop in FUNAN IT MALL...Guess what is so special...
It is a shop named to be "JOHN 3:16"..GOD BLESS US...
This part tell us about how our god love us!!

Remind me of a lot..... Like i will not speak a single vulgar words ever since i promises, for the sake of repentance and my shepherd.. :)

Going to bed, i dun think i will sleep early..MY GUITAR!!..School start tomorrow..

2009-04-16T08:15:00.000-07:00

Haiz.....Today i am so tired, i was wondering why time passes like wind....2 days ago, my orientation camp was a big big BORING....Vivian, Li Ling and me were grouped together, we are isolated from the group and the group leader was kinda of racist...Disappointed!!!! Went home half-way with HEAVY FOOTSTEPS...I still need to go back on the last day because i had to learn important things about my school website and their functions......Collecting E-z link card....I wonder how will i look like in the picture???

I was quite tired today... I was told that I am in BLOCK E and i am alone....HOW??? Die lo... Kinda of challenging to me but would the people in my class be nice?? I wonder again...I was thinking if i am depending on my friends all the time because i am afraid, but why...

IT IS FEAR!! I am afraid of to be reject by others and i will be alone....LONELYNESS is HELL!!!! If only i can be more confident, happy and friendly....If i dun step up then i will surely be lonely....

LOok Forward to...MY BRAND NEW LIFE!!!

2009-04-13T08:24:00.001-07:00

"Am i ready for school???" I asked myself this past few days when i am working...walking or even sleeping.....I am not ready to open this very new door that is near to me..

Getting on is difficult...i want to enjoy my holiday, having casual dining and watching movies with my best friends in my previous secondary school, enjoy slacking in any form and working like a workerholic....BUT it will soon end. I am sad, yet i had no one to tell. Sometime i just felt like telling myself to move on but am i really moving....I wonder more than i do.

One day, i was told by someone that-" Life is not just definite by a language but its flexiblity"..Immediately i realised Its only a cycle...NO CRY NO PAIN!! I can still enjoy, meeting my best friend while getting new friends, working and slack a bit lesser..Everything made sense in another perspective view..... Starting a new path would be another beginning....Regardless of where you go, memories is something that can never be replaced, Its a part of your life.

2 days more.....Never change in heart forever..

2009-04-03T05:17:00.000-07:00

I thought a lot today.....Why do he have to put in this type of comment?? I really thought that all i need is to quit playing audition and everything should be fine but maybe this is a way to escape from reality...I decided to spell out whatever in the deep, deep corner of my mind...

I am a sensetive person indeed and i can only tolerate kinds of joke...I do not blow up because i do not want to create a very destructive issue....I am sad to the core when i saw your blog insulting me.....Why can't you realise that i want this friendship, i want to interact more and be friendly to everyone around...Sharing the same topics.....I am trying to make friends my most treasureous assets....

I think you went far with the issue....I tried to apologise and said sorry...i did but you do not notice and i also went in again to the room......It is you who want to lock the room and it is you who throw me into the bin, replacing me with Li ling.....I know i am not your best friend nor vivian's but at least respect my feeling as a friend please.....

Did you realise you have been thinking of things in your own perspective view? for example...You said i lie but indeed i went for training in Entry all the while and i had some bulit up potential but IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT I CAN DO 150 perfectly.....I also depend on my luck de and understand the flow....Which expert always win??? What more it is a person who only played for 2 days......? You guys does not trust me at all, I never ask anyone to play for me...NEVER...I said that i am noob because i dun want to be arrogent and proud....."Insulting" is only a view of yours...who want to be told to go and die....When did i lie??? Felt insulted...

I am a metrosexual but not a gay...BUT WHY!!! TELL ME WHY!!! i am so hurt when you asked vivian to spread around in school that i am a gay...so rude!!! I does not like it but i tell myself that i must treat it as a joke because you are my friend.....FRUITY FIVE is not sensitive, dun make me one...YOU KNOW THAT I AM SENSITIVE.....In the past, I am insulted as a gay and left my childhood a horrible experience....Sad...WHY did you wake them up!!!!!

Have you think of a friend who just tried his best to keep his friendship and yet you want to break it.....WHY??? Have you been consider to others.....Have you ???? 3 years of friendship.....turn out to be like this..... you ANGRY but have you thought about ME...You just think of yourself and your emotion...then who cares about mine...???

AND stop talking about SHERYL......i had already repent and i tried not to be late but why i still had to be treated like this.....Can't i just say hi to you guys???

I finally understand Why.....

Pour myself out from the fridge.....EMO!

2009-04-02T11:23:00.000-07:00

Ever since the whole group of fruity five got addicted to audition, i am very hectic with it as well because i really want to mix together with them.....I realised that potential can be build up as time passes.....I grow up from nothing to complete a finishing move.....thanks to people at Entry...They are really nice to me.....I played a few rounds with vivian and marcus the day before and the result were good de lo...i started to have hope associating.......Felt happy..

Today evening i went to train again...then i joined them at 1.30am ....I was happy that i achieved something, at least a 2nd place but nightmare started...I went around saying i used hack because i want to be humble after i am so proud, but came out to make them thought that i lied again....I was kicked out at first and i thought i can try again but things just remained the same....Despite of all my efforts, i still cannot do it....I am really useless...

I WILL NEVER PLAY AUDITION AGAIN!!!!

i just feel things does not belong to me anymore.......

One cannot always stand up high, they will also fall one day....

A day @ plu cafe

2009-03-30T12:50:00.000-07:00

Today i was worked in Plu cafe. When Chee Hong left at 8.10pm, only keith and me were there and i was quite worried. I have to do bar, service, cashier and washing all by myself because keith only in-charge of kitchen....However the business were fair, so i went through it smoothly.....and i saw Shaun and Andrew as usual.......

Hope Shaun will be successful with his presentation tomorrow........He got a sore-throat before hand and he ate prata for supper yesterday with us.......However he sounds all right today, no change of vocal......

I played scrabble alone during the late hour and our very kind boss, Andrew joined me for the game......We did not really counted the wins and losses but i believe the game benefits both of us and our vocabulary....

Tomorrow got a meeting with gabriel and marcus........Actually vivian but she is struggling with her own problem.......We will still have dinner together........so HAPPY!!!

A TRIP TO WEI YING's 17th BIRTHDAY

2009-03-26T02:49:00.000-07:00

I slept for only 3 hours only, then wake up by the my alarm clock....I was tired but kind of look forward to her birthday party at compass point Swensen...and it is kind of cheap because there is a 1 for 1 lunch meal..... Yesterday i planned to get a present for wei ying, last minute at compass point in the morning and buy her a surprise earthquake from Swensen as a replace for an ice-cream cake because it is out of budget....

Went to Precious Trot before they open... around 15 minutes before 11 am, brought a jewel box for Wei Ying, it is quite elegant, black colour and quite handy....I also brought a white teddy bear with brown bow for Li ling birthday present..It is so cute yet mysterious....I came down to the basement and saw li ling when i tried to put the "jia you"card to the bear.....I was SHOCKED!!!! and i just gave it to her unprepared....

Wei ying, Li ling, sheryl, Germaine, Wen hui, Yvonne, Vivian, Marcus, Gabriel, Poo koon are there to celebrate. We had a wonderful time but i forget about the bill that was sent back for amend and in the end the bill was paid...could i forget that i paid the bill?? I wonder again....I apologise to Poo Koon for some reason again...I am sorry.

My Ribeye Steak....Taste okay only.....Jack place taste Better!! and i am not full so i order a salmon pasta, waterly ....like what they said "fish soup noodle sold in the coffee shop".....

Gabriel ate the clayfish pasta....We got the same set meal lo....but the noodle like so little...

Vivian look like a ghost....

Earthquake served after meal but it meant to be a surprise.......Thanks to that MANAGER lo....We sang birthday song louder than any other table....HAHA..

I actually want to take the ice-cream below because its melting....I dun really want to mess up the thing.....

Let see how marcus perform....!!!

They look totally like a couple lo...7 spoon of ice-cream xchange for a "live" time of happiness.....Xiong da ge + Ying da jie= Yang guo+ xiao dragon girl

SSShhhh.....i think we had been spotted!!!!

I hope ice-cream that melts is still sweet....

I am all the while looking forward to the POOL store and.........FINALLY we are HERE..... we got ourselves 4 8ft table and i am quite bother by it because it is smaller and lower...Most importantly CHEAPER de lo.....Enjoy playing but i alway lose by one ball.....i will try to train harder and MAYBE 1 day i will beat marcus, the pro....BUCK UP!!!

Look at this Vivian usE BLACK BALL to block my white ball.....Think about it again, maybe i can make the ball jump to hit the yellow ball of mine.......I am not a pro la....Whatever i still die because it was my turn lo....

Its seem like i got improvement today, i still need more to go.....I just hope that my life will be getting better....I just hope that everything can repeat again....what a nice memories!!! Hope Marcus will arrange some else next week....

If i had done nothing...I should still be in the family...

A Day To Jack's Place Happen In My Life!!

2009-03-25T05:01:00.000-07:00

Today i woke up very early to go and work... It is my big day after so many days and efforts on my presentation because i am going to present my idea on ways to improve the sale of this year....I got really nervous and start to amend my proposal when i reached my company.... I stopped for a cup of expresso before i went in to the meeting room....Johnson started to pick bones from my proposal while everyone seem to have no problem... it is all about company politics...HAIZ!!!! Total 6 votes and 4 were given to me.... Which means my proposal was adopted.....Happy.... Finally i can take my leave le......~

Planned to join Marcus, Vivian and Gabriel for lunch in Jack's Place...My RIBEYES BEEF STEAK....Not that bad but the sour cream is fattening and I am sick of the potato....and i think the service of the crews are fine....Changing a sub-standard steak made me felt demanding....I should change because i got a bad habit.... Marcus got the same as me while vivian and gabriel had the half spring chicken with sambal sauce....

We went to play pool at hougang plaza and i saw my senior on the way but i could not remember of her name ....and guess what she came out to be the new staff of pool store....Haha...What a coincidence!!! My first time playing pool got me scored a victory from vivian and gabriel...... but seem like marcus is a pro in it.....Learnt how to play and want more tomorrow hopefully.....I saw christoper le- Vivian's friend....... he seem to be a pro in pool because of his aiming and skills and it is not surprised that vivian lost in a friendly match with him.....

After that went home and ate nissin's chichen soup de instant noodle because no one cooks for me........

I think i should not be late for tomorrow's meeting because I promise myself that i will never make my friends waiting for me but to wait for them.....

For : A person stand near my heart!

This is hard for me

but has to be done

its not to hurt you

saying this is not fun

please understand

for you, i really care

i love you

and the time we shared

but its over now

time to move on

time to leave the past

a new life has begun

we both have reasons

we both know why

lets let things go

before i start to cry

this way we can part

maybe one day

we can be just friends

who's to say

i will always

keep you in my heart

but circumstances have

torn us apart

so this is it

time to go

remember always

i loved you so ...

Xtra In a famiy trip....HAPPY.

2009-03-23T06:43:00.000-07:00

We appreciated the Mini Ferry Wheel.........Its nice...

We went eat BBQ chicken........

To the bench......

We went cycling.....Thanks to the nice weather...

Invitation To ViVian House!

2008-12-04T08:11:00.000-08:00

Today , i went collect the Guanaja-(a french top quality bitter sweet chocolate mousse and ganache, with two layers of chocolate sponges. Come with a bottom layer of crispy biscult) after my work which is a long presentation. At first i want to buy mango cheesecake but vivian's mum since to be in love with chocolates..It is still as Sinful as mango cheesecake, so fattening. However most importantly is that everyone enjoyed the cake with the apricot juice that marcus brought. I was quite disappointed that Vivian's family never eat it that night, hope they eat the next day.

It is so fascinating..

I realise that Vivian house was quite spacious. Her house decorate in "Nature" concept as it shown greenery with plants and flowers while keep it plain to show the beauty of nature. Vivian just brought a 42 inch LG LCD television but yet to put on. i think she would have a better vision as it has a better pixel framed. I was quite delighted when i enter the house.

This dog is one of Vivian beloved softtoy. It is so Cute and the soft fur made a touch so soft. I cannot bear to leave it at th end of the day. i hugged it all the way when i was playing some sort of card game and i learn how to play the "level pig" game but i end up losing.. but at least i pull them to be "pig" as well...Haha...

This Black heart was folded by Vivian. Unbelieveable! It was Vivian.. she was never so delicated. I praised her skill, indeed it is beautiful. It ended up with me as a gift from her. She became a much appreciated friend to me and Thank Her for the heart. I promised that i will keep it well.

This was the bunny bag that vivian brought. it was very cute but i wonder if it is well treated.. Look at the bunny sleeping after a long day. ZZZ...

Vivian's Softtoys all-time favourites...

This was a gift from her mother to vivian. After looking at this, i realised that vivian's mother loved vivian a lot. it was sew by her mother and it is trying to express that Vivian mother would always care about her forever. It is so noble and i take my hats off for auntie's commitment. Love from mother is priceless.

All this homemade food were cooked by Auntie. they smell good, look good and tastes YUMMY! Having dinner at Vivian was an abrupt decision made, and Auntie had to wake up early and visit the market to buy some grocery for dinner. I really appreciate that dinner because it was really an effort made. It is cool! Sharing a same table for dinner with all my friends., we chat ever more..Merry! I would like to take this opportunity to thank auntie for her cooking and Vivian for inviting us..

It's hands ON time and the teacher for that day is PK. We learnt from Pk how to fold heartz and star for your love ones.. Unfortunately i did not manage to catch up therefore left with vivian, Pk, marcus and gabriel doing it.. Pk manage to WOW with a HUge STar.

1. PK

2. Marcus

3.Vivian

4. Gabriel

5. Me

(jing yuan was not interested in it therefore he play his poker card while waiting for us)

Vivian has a hamster named "Darling". She was pro-active and cute especially when she is taking her short nap. She was very entertaining while she never forget the smell of Vivian and stick to her most of the time. We stayed at Vivian's home until 1 am, a very late hour but our mind were still early. We cannot bear to leave. There is so much to talk about...so much more. However Vivian's family also need to take their rest, so we took our leaves. I would like to thank Vivian and her family for such a coordinate dinner and sorry for disturbing them.

Break For Me.. I am back.

2008-12-03T09:07:00.000-08:00

I had not been using blog since my exam started. Finally todaiy is the big day and i am here to tell you what happen recently. Apart from working, sleeping and eating, I also start to miss all my friends. I went shopping with Vivian, Marcus and Yaya chicken who is Pk today and we had so much fun getting a present for Gabriel but we came to no conclusion. Today we went to CENTRAL to look out for jobs. Actually i do have several jobs on hand but i work in cold environments. The Robinson event that i worked with them made me feel warm and enjoyable, i want that feeling again. We went several restaurants to make enquires and search out for delicious food. Rocks was kicked by vivian in one of the restaurant and it destroy the clean and tidy floor, the staff there must be angry about it plus it was their break time. I found one of the staff in this CHEAPO japanese restaurant rude because she kept away the paper when i want to joint down my information. No application form at all. I was ignored. Afterwards, we went near clark quey river and happen to passby a shooting field. We did not notice until we saw the actor and actress, then we realise immediately. We change our direction and we are lucky that i done it automatically without a scream. We are safe from trouble. Vivian got her present for joey..its something like mini drawer with a round mirror and a doll. The wrapping skill done by this beautiful lady was good except for the ribbon, sort of mistake. It was fun but short. Dinner was homemade for everyone, i got my pizza and a bowl of maggie noodle because i was alone at home. It okay because we might be going to Vivian home for dinner tomorrow. How i hope her mummy will agree to cook us some home cooked dinner. Looking forward to and a glass of apricot nectar fruit juice would just be great!

I decided to buy a mango cheesecake from Rive because one of my colleague said that the cheesecake there is superme and i hope to share it with my friend tomorrow at vivian house.

Looks fascinating and sinful.

Open the Door & A Fresh Start

2008-06-05T15:05:00.001-07:00

It is my very first day blogging yet i m still in blanks.......Let me introduce myself first. By the way my english is not up to standard so i would not be surprise to hear comments. Just free to, its always my pleasure to. My name is Elfonson, let me tell you it's origin. Elf is a Highly Intelligent Creature which fon want his son to be. I don't like to nag. Simple, short and fast is what look into. My life is just about schooling, working, entertainment and blogging from now onwards. My life might be simple but you will find out that is not as you explore. In campus, in 4E5 classroom, there will always be commotion yet fun. I remain slience when there are commotion, simply because i do not want to be involve in those crazy matter. I do not like to get be in trouble. Getting out of my school safety, would be a day of peace. School are Out of my mind because is my holiday but i do miss my friends..........

'O'level examination is coming and i am deeply concern about it.......Oh ya my TYS for math still have not finish and holiday is going to be over. I do not want be Game Over yet. If only i could get some help......

Eating and drinking is part of my life, so does everyone. I wonder when would i be free go for a good meal and buy tickets to watch the Kung Fu Panda.... Hectic schedule made me unable to breath.....i better go and working before my boss scream at me.....

First day

2008-05-31T12:50:00.000-07:00

first day of blog first post duh... okay thats all=)