Friday, December 4, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
In the beginning, I was not really giving a high expectation to my new formatted team based on the abilities of my team member. Especially when I saw Jeslin in the list. She gave me an impression that she was more focus in MSN and her entertainment than her school work normally. However I am surprised that she had balances her work and entertainment well enough….As we goes along the lesson, Jeslin participated greatly with her, nevertheless she possesses a type of motivation for me to look upon. When her “gang” left, she stay by to continue and complete her learning.The determination in her eyes shown her willingness to achieve something. I was greatly impressed!
At that moment in time, I felt very guilty for stereotyping her. “I am sorry, Jeslin”.
Maybe sometime when one observe closely, everything might change at that blink of light… Stereotyping can be a form of miscommunication. Yet that miscommunication show a sign of someone’s effort in doing something. Give another round of choice to myself, I chose the right way to walk… However would it be too late for me to? I hope that the next sunrise will show my the light! :)
Another day to go!
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8:56 AM|
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
HAPPY LIFE!
BABY ELFONSON!
I am a boy who just want to be happy all the time. I have decided that i will not be sad for anything in life. I will try my best to be a happy boy for the entire 25550 days that i might have or even shorter in life ( roughly estimated around 70 years ). Perhaps not happy meals for everyday but at least a bright beam of sunlight; so warm and heartening.....I will be free from all. In my life, I can just have me to be happy. Of cost, i need people to brighten my life. Back then i hope someone could, or else i would still be happy......Afterall it is everything about me in life. I will do it. I promise to myself that i will do things that i will feel happy in life. Not a day, minute, or second later to delay..it is NOW! 4:16:00am@ 2/9/2009...HAPPY ELFONSON FOREVER!
Another day to go!
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2:51 PM|
Monday, August 31, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
Holiday had JUST START for ME...
Looking at my holiday, i am actually reflecting myself to be happy because i would be free from quite a tonne of work load that made me very stress and exhausted this monthe ONLY. I have brainstorm on spending my holiday meaningful to me. I really hope to share things with people around me for this month. Perhaps a few tea-break session might help me a bit. Well also practise my violin and guitar skills and a bit of exercise for myself which i am alway lack off. I Most importantly i think that i should go and play to entertain myself, this would filled my heart with energy again. This is something that i will never get to do for months.
Well, all this is just decision-making of personal. Have you thought of HOW you could change the world? I did. I thought of changing the world by changing myself. I am always very greed and because of this, I could not even make decision between only 2 choices. I think that decision making should be made according to the values that i have view in life. I should define clearly on my values and work towards it.
Work, work and work is not the only solution.
Another day to go!
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11:35 AM|
HALO EVERYONE,
My friends, I will miss YOU.
E37Q is pieces of beautiful mermories that i had in my life. We shared joy together. Although i am somehow concern about my grade and could be very aggressive from time to time, but I am really very gladful to have a wonderful classmate like U. Lets think of some outing that we can do to bring everyone under one roof again! Work for all..Jia U! :)
Another day to go!
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12:09 AM|
Sunday, August 30, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
Specially for U...
Hope you will like it! :)
Another day to go!
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5:58 AM|
Saturday, August 29, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
It is a day like jigsaw puzzel...
Today, i am not really happy.....I overslept and never attend my Kayaking training... :( I really hope that i could put in more effort in Kayaking and earn my first star..I can see that the Kayaking group has been disappointed with my participation. I think that I should improve more on my organising skills, make more spaces for Kayaking, MY ONE STAR COURSE!!....I want to earn and join the group for field trip..haiz... I should tell myself to be free on them.....especially tuesday and saturday!!...
I hope to achieve a list of things in this holiday...I tell myself that i will ...Jia U!!I will do it because I know you are there for me.
Anyway, i am feeling to be more relation-orientiated. I realised that even though money and power can be a need in the society but relationship is something that cannot be ignored because it is something that support my spiritual needs and grows together with them...I tried to build up relationship with people like Kai En and braynard ,who i am not familiar with..Felt sad to see Ah Neh going NS, hope that he will remember me and call me out...haha..I also hope to improve relationship between friends who i felt that i can walk with for life. I just wonder if you would open up to me and be my best friend?? A promise that we made.
"Friendship is always a sweet responsibilty, never an opportunity..."
Another day to go!
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10:12 AM|
Thursday, August 20, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
After so long way walking on this path in life, I saw the past, present and even forseen future. As I walked a step forward, my heart beat became weaker and weaker. I see myself growing up gradually as time passes, but how did I grow and what will I become eventually?
The past was filled with challenges, restriction and resistances. As I grew with them, I see myself forming a cold heart, as my heartbeat can no longer support it with warm and energy. I am changing to become someone that is no longer care about relationship. I see no passion in life, rather i see my obsessive mind. A mind that filled with benefits, strength and power. I am left to a decision now. Should I do it or change it? It is no longer up to me to choose anymore. I am left with only an empty shell that has no human soul at all. I carry no feeling, love or feeling at all.
In the end, I will be left with no friendship or relationship. I am only going to the path where I can see to be valuable. However is this final destination really valuable or is it just illusion after all? Would it be as empty as the a hollow or it as fruitful as a futile land? As I am writing, I see the vision, but rather, only the mission of my life's perspective should determine, would it be accurate. What do I really desire and need to have in future?
In life, there could be so many question, but to me, they come back to be one again. What do I want? I am not looking at the consequences in this moment in time, I look at myself. Ask my heart again, if it can be regenerating because of hope and light.
I will grow stronger and get ready to answer this question that is so important to me which might affect my life. For now, i will explore like the great adventurer, Marco Polo. Fear made me see and reflect. As i leave up my fingers, i saw another of my footstep in the back of me.
Remember
HAPPY=HAPPY......
JIA U, everyone for UT3!
Amen! God is smiling at me too! SAY CHEESE!
Another day to go!
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10:16 AM|
Sunday, August 2, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
If you have realised, i placed a new video in my sidebar...
While take your time to watch it! You will discover things that you need!!
Well, i am really excited about learning on how to play a guitar!! I just brought my new guitar with my brothers, Desmond & Yeshen.. Too bad need to get it only by tomorrow..
Guitar lesson start this saturday..Quite near to date...
After the starter lesson, when the holiday start, Desmond will guild me! :)
Today, i was really tired. Woke up at 2pm..I was staring at the brightness first touch my eyesight..Looking at it again
i realised that i need more pill sustain my health..
On the way, i thought i will talk a lot, but i did not...
I always want to bring myself closer to them...but i always fail..lol
When i was looking out for the guitars, i really have no idea what to choose... Ranging for big-small, white-black, high to low pitch..So much..
Thanks to my bros, who helped me with the decision-making...
Oh i also saw a shop in FUNAN IT MALL...Guess what is so special...
It is a shop named to be "JOHN 3:16"..GOD BLESS US...
This part tell us about how our god love us!!
Remind me of a lot..... Like i will not speak a single vulgar words ever since i promises, for the sake of repentance and my shepherd.. :)
Going to bed, i dun think i will sleep early..MY GUITAR!!..School start tomorrow..
Another day to go!
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8:12 AM|
Thursday, April 16, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
Haiz.....Today i am so tired, i was wondering why time passes like wind....2 days ago, my orientation camp was a big big BORING....Vivian, Li Ling and me were grouped together, we are isolated from the group and the group leader was kinda of racist...Disappointed!!!! Went home half-way with HEAVY FOOTSTEPS...I still need to go back on the last day because i had to learn important things about my school website and their functions......Collecting E-z link card....I wonder how will i look like in the picture???I was quite tired today... I was told that I am in BLOCK E and i am alone....HOW??? Die lo... Kinda of challenging to me but would the people in my class be nice?? I wonder again...I was thinking if i am depending on my friends all the time because i am afraid, but why...IT IS FEAR!! I am afraid of to be reject by others and i will be alone....LONELYNESS is HELL!!!! If only i can be more confident, happy and friendly....If i dun step up then i will surely be lonely....LOok Forward to...MY BRAND NEW LIFE!!!
Another day to go!
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8:15 AM|
Monday, April 13, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
"Am i ready for school???" I asked myself this past few days when i am working...walking or even sleeping.....I am not ready to open this very new door that is near to me..
Getting on is difficult...i want to enjoy my holiday, having casual dining and watching movies with my best friends in my previous secondary school, enjoy slacking in any form and working like a workerholic....BUT it will soon end. I am sad, yet i had no one to tell. Sometime i just felt like telling myself to move on but am i really moving....I wonder more than i do.
One day, i was told by someone that-" Life is not just definite by a language but its flexiblity"..Immediately i realised Its only a cycle...NO CRY NO PAIN!! I can still enjoy, meeting my best friend while getting new friends, working and slack a bit lesser..Everything made sense in another perspective view..... Starting a new path would be another beginning....Regardless of where you go, memories is something that can never be replaced, Its a part of your life.
2 days more.....Never change in heart forever..
Another day to go!
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8:24 AM|
Friday, April 3, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
I thought a lot today.....Why do he have to put in this type of comment?? I really thought that all i need is to quit playing audition and everything should be fine but maybe this is a way to escape from reality...I decided to spell out whatever in the deep, deep corner of my mind...
I am a sensetive person indeed and i can only tolerate kinds of joke...I do not blow up because i do not want to create a very destructive issue....I am sad to the core when i saw your blog insulting me.....Why can't you realise that i want this friendship, i want to interact more and be friendly to everyone around...Sharing the same topics.....I am trying to make friends my most treasureous assets....
I think you went far with the issue....I tried to apologise and said sorry...i did but you do not notice and i also went in again to the room......It is you who want to lock the room and it is you who throw me into the bin, replacing me with Li ling.....I know i am not your best friend nor vivian's but at least respect my feeling as a friend please.....
Did you realise you have been thinking of things in your own perspective view? for example...You said i lie but indeed i went for training in Entry all the while and i had some bulit up potential but IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT I CAN DO 150 perfectly.....I also depend on my luck de and understand the flow....Which expert always win??? What more it is a person who only played for 2 days......? You guys does not trust me at all, I never ask anyone to play for me...NEVER...I said that i am noob because i dun want to be arrogent and proud....."Insulting" is only a view of yours...who want to be told to go and die....When did i lie??? Felt insulted...
I am a metrosexual but not a gay...BUT WHY!!! TELL ME WHY!!! i am so hurt when you asked vivian to spread around in school that i am a gay...so rude!!! I does not like it but i tell myself that i must treat it as a joke because you are my friend.....FRUITY FIVE is not sensitive, dun make me one...YOU KNOW THAT I AM SENSITIVE.....In the past, I am insulted as a gay and left my childhood a horrible experience....Sad...WHY did you wake them up!!!!!
Have you think of a friend who just tried his best to keep his friendship and yet you want to break it.....WHY??? Have you been consider to others.....Have you ???? 3 years of friendship.....turn out to be like this..... you ANGRY but have you thought about ME...You just think of yourself and your emotion...then who cares about mine...???
AND stop talking about SHERYL......i had already repent and i tried not to be late but why i still had to be treated like this.....Can't i just say hi to you guys???
I finally understand Why.....
Labels: Just for Marcus
Another day to go!
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5:17 AM|
Thursday, April 2, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
Ever since the whole group of fruity five got addicted to audition, i am very hectic with it as well because i really want to mix together with them.....I realised that potential can be build up as time passes.....I grow up from nothing to complete a finishing move.....thanks to people at Entry...They are really nice to me.....I played a few rounds with vivian and marcus the day before and the result were good de lo...i started to have hope associating.......Felt happy..Today evening i went to train again...then i joined them at 1.30am ....I was happy that i achieved something, at least a 2nd place but nightmare started...I went around saying i used hack because i want to be humble after i am so proud, but came out to make them thought that i lied again....I was kicked out at first and i thought i can try again but things just remained the same....Despite of all my efforts, i still cannot do it....I am really useless...I WILL NEVER PLAY AUDITION AGAIN!!!!i just feel things does not belong to me anymore.......One cannot always stand up high, they will also fall one day....
Another day to go!
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11:23 AM|
Monday, March 30, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
Today i was worked in Plu cafe. When Chee Hong left at 8.10pm, only keith and me were there and i was quite worried. I have to do bar, service, cashier and washing all by myself because keith only in-charge of kitchen....However the business were fair, so i went through it smoothly.....and i saw Shaun and Andrew as usual.......
Hope Shaun will be successful with his presentation tomorrow........He got a sore-throat before hand and he ate prata for supper yesterday with us.......However he sounds all right today, no change of vocal......
I played scrabble alone during the late hour and our very kind boss, Andrew joined me for the game......We did not really counted the wins and losses but i believe the game benefits both of us and our vocabulary....
Tomorrow got a meeting with gabriel and marcus........Actually vivian but she is struggling with her own problem.......We will still have dinner together........so HAPPY!!!
Another day to go!
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12:50 PM|
Thursday, March 26, 2009
HALO EVERYONE,
I slept for only 3 hours only, then wake up by the my alarm clock....I was tired but kind of look forward to her birthday party at compass point Swensen...and it is kind of cheap because there is a 1 for 1 lunch meal..... Yesterday i planned to get a present for wei ying, last minute at compass point in the morning and buy her a surprise earthquake from Swensen as a replace for an ice-cream cake because it is out of budget....
Went to Precious Trot before they open... around 15 minutes before 11 am, brought a jewel box for Wei Ying, it is quite elegant, black colour and quite handy....I also brought a white teddy bear with brown bow for Li ling birthday present..It is so cute yet mysterious....I came down to the basement and saw li ling when i tried to put the "jia you"card to the bear.....I was SHOCKED!!!! and i just gave it to her unprepared....
Wei ying, Li ling, sheryl, Germaine, Wen hui, Yvonne, Vivian, Marcus, Gabriel, Poo koon are there to celebrate. We had a wonderful time but i forget about the bill that was sent back for amend and in the end the bill was paid...could i forget that i paid the bill?? I wonder again....I apologise to Poo Koon for some reason again...I am sorry.
Vivian look like a ghost....
They look totally like a couple lo...7 spoon of ice-cream xchange for a "live" time of happiness.....Xiong da ge + Ying da jie= Yang guo+ xiao dragon girl
SSShhhh.....i think we had been spotted!!!!
I hope ice-cream that melts is still sweet....
Another day to go!
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2:49 AM|
My Ribeye Steak....Taste okay only.....Jack place taste Better!! and i am not full so i order a salmon pasta, waterly ....like what they said "fish soup noodle sold in the coffee shop".....
Earthquake served after meal but it meant to be a surprise.......Thanks to that MANAGER lo....We sang birthday song louder than any other table....HAHA..
Look at this Vivian usE BLACK BALL to block my white ball.....Think about it again, maybe i can make the ball jump to hit the yellow ball of mine.......I am not a pro la....Whatever i still die because it was my turn lo....
